Hit your gspot people!

Haven't really been around much, life's been busy with well.. the usual. December and the stress it brings isn't making things better.. A lot going on that i might end up explaining later.. maybe not, we'll see.

Got something that takes some of the stress off thou. Not too long ago a new box from Eden ended up in my local post office. Always exciting to see what it contains. This time it was a g-spot vibrator. Cute little thing that doesn't make too much noise and sure does the trick. Not as good as the little fun thing i got last time but its still awesome. A bit too plastic ish for my taste but at least it doesn't have one of those weird rubbery smells which is always a good thing.

Thanks Eden for my new sextoy! 

Even if i'm not a active writer at the moment i do still read your blogs, hard to stop once you started.
Easy to get addicted for sure.

What do you want?

Haven't really been as good as writing this thing as i should have been.. Life kicks in, work, private things, meetings, friends.. just life in general. Haven't really had the proper motivation to write something either.. simply cause i don't know what people find interesting i suppose and there hasn't been too much Daddy time lately. We both been busy. i wish i had more time to spread on the people and things i care about. Its getting colder and darker and suddenly friends are more important then ever. Its easy to get depressed and you have to do everything you can do not go down that road. Thats not who i am and hopefully never will be, but when life is hard.. you sometimes have to fight your way to the things that make you smile. Kinda side tracked from the subject a little.. Sorry.. Too easy to put feelings to words sometimes.

Anyway-- What do you want me to write about, or actually, what do you want to read about?

Missing..

Right now all i can think about is how much i want a hand coming down on my arse.
Got a message from Daddy today that he found on the internet somwhere. "Spankings are like potato chips, just one is never enough".

So damn true.

The power of orgasm!

i know, i know. Havent been around much lately.. actually not at all. Life has been way too busy for my own good with my new position at work, new friends and the new found urge to be super social. Starting to get to know the small gang of D/s people in town as well which is awesome. Nice not having to hide things from people.

Anyway.. As most of you already know, i have my point system for orgasms. Actually not something i've used as much as i should. Dont know why, not been in the mood i suppose.. that is until i got the new toy from eden fantasys. Just had a urge to try it the other day. i mean, i've tried my share of vibrators and stuff but omg! This thing is awesome. Its my new favourite vibrator. Its not too loud and the vibrations are just perfect. It bends too! My other vibrator just got dumped for this thing.

Would never have thought something like this could do so much. So glad i got to try it. Thanks Eden for my new sextoy!

Made my own whip..

The other day i wrote this post about how maybe i needed a new hobby. Playing with paracord to be exact. Placed a order for 3 x 10meters saturday and it arrived in the mail tuesday. Went on youtube to find that tutorial i wanted to learn from and off it went.

First try (picture below) didn't go too well since it was all made of white rope in the tutorial i missed a small detail and it ended up having only 10 tails (lacking a middle). Used grey and purple for the first one. Its pretty but.. not pretty enough. Making one takes about one hour but it is a little tricky until you get the hang of it and since paracord is kinda hard to tie you need to pull the knots pretty hard.. lets just say. i have sore hands!

 Second one was much better. i realized my mistake and set out to make a new better one. Used all the purple in the first one so this one ended up grey and black. Much better color combination if you ask me but oh well. The second one is close to perfect. It has 14 tails. Haven't tried either of them yet except for on my inner thigh and one thing is for sure. The sound of these things are worse then the bite.. but that still hurts as fuck. Not sure i want to be the subject of a hard whipping with this thing.. Ouch!

Isn't it cool thou?

Mom expands her vocabulary

BDSM'ers don't typically talk much about their family, as the two subject don't often come up together. However...

My Mother works from home 4 days a week and uses public transportation the other day for what would be an hour commute by car. I gave her a ride home though myself. My mom works for an IT sector of a large company, however in a non IT manner, handling the more business side of the industry. It puts her in an awkward middle part of a venn diagram between understanding technology concepts and being completely inept at putting these concepts into action.

Mom was playing with my Droid2 phone and after getting over the shock of the naked slave in nadu position on my home screen she stumbled into voice activated Google search. She asks if she can search for anything and I tell her yes of course. She says she saw a word on one of those LOLcats sites and didn't understand it. She is under the mistaken impression that she has to shout in the phone for a response. So she presses the button and shouts at the top of her lungs into my phone.

"QUEEF!"

10 minutes into the hour drive home.

~Will

New hobby?

Turned on my computer to check facebook but ended up reading some of the kinkyblogs instead.
Ended up reading this post and got inspired to check out my favourite bookstore thanks to him. Found the book he recommended and the sidebar pops up saying "People buying this, also got this book..." and its one of the books by Two Knotty Boys. All that combined with the fact that a friend the other day said he was making his submissive a paracord collar got me thinking. Maybe its time i got myself a new hobby. Been thinking about trying my luck on making a whip forever! So.. why not start simple and make one with rope or in my case paracord. Found this online store that has a million colors and its cheap as hell. Might worth a try?
Anyone ever tried it? Help wouldn't hurt.

Anal poll is up...

Doesn't seem i have much choice here.. Mr Evil talked about doing this but thought it was a joke..
Guess not.. So the choice if yours. The poll is up on the side of the blog. Vote! and decide my fate.

You choose anal adventure part 1

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Hard weeks

Don't even know where to start, its been a hard couple of weeks in so many ways. Its been a real challenge but i'm happy to say both me and Mr Evil made it to the other side. A lot of thought, emotions and concerns has been rolling around in my head this week. Some are taken care of and others.. well left for a better time.
Hope to be back on track soon.

Also over the next few days, hopefully another toy review/sexstory coming your way. Its a analtoy this time and have a feeling Master has a plan for it..

Your girl has a slutty kinky mind...

Sometimes conversations take a weird turn

Master - Should be sleeping

me - i'm sorry, if i'm the reason your not.

Master - fillmywetstinkyholewithyourlog.com

me - eh..

Master - just go there

me - eh, wow

Master - twofingerpussydance.com

me - wow....

Master - and you thought it'd be dirty.

me - yes i did.

Master - No idea why

me - your girl has a slutty kinky mind cause of you

Mia Master

Its not as serious as it sounds, i hope. i'm so used to Daddy being on my arse about the small and big things during the day that, now i'm worried.

Talked to Him last night before i went to bed. He called from work. i like to think its cause i said i miss Him but never know. We talked a little, laughed and things were as normal. i got slightly yelled at for something stupid i had done and He gave me a small punishment (glad i got that instead of bad girl points). We said our nighty nights and i jumped in bed. That was about 24h ago and haven't heard a word since. Not a response to my punishment assignment, no comment on my breakfast picture or dinner picture, not even a answer to my "i love you" text. Not a word.

He was suppose to have the day off today but His schedule changes more often then not so hard to know.
i did beg Him to send me a text if His day off today got canceled thou... but not a word.

i'm sure everything is fine and i'm just being worried for nothing.. but still. i'm worried and its a feeling i dont like, not one bit.

"I had a long night and a rare day off. I didn't set my alarm clock and happened to sleep late."

Good girl vs Bad girl points..

Mr Evil has given me more freedom and more power over my own sexuality. Cant say i remember why we had the conversation in the first place but, one day we talked about my orgasms. Like a lot of subs out there i need to ask permission. Something which makes me not do it a lot unless we play or talk etc. Mostly cause its a bit frustrating getting worked up and not have Him answer my text cause of work or something.

So, Mr Evil has designed a good girl/bad girl point system allowing me more freedom with for example using point to have a orgasm without asking first. Of course there are some rules to this system.

To earn good girl points i can for example:
- post three blogspost in a week = 1 point.
- gain a blog follower = 2 points
- post getting comments = 2 points
- not gain a bad girl points = 1 point/week up to max of 3 points/week
etc.. 

i can also use the good girl point for:
3 points to orgasm without asking
2 points to "delete" a bad girl point

The number of earned (sounds so serious) bad girl points will decide what kind of punishment i will get.
Mr Evil feels that sometimes there are things that i do wrong, thats not a good thing.. but still not bad enough to really punish me for.. so now i guess He can wait and punish me until i collected "enough" bad girl points.

A bit confusing isn't it? Feel the same but i'm sure we'll get the hang of it soon enough.
And.. of course Mr Evil can give me both good point and bad points for small or big things i do.

His greedy little slut.

This girl isn't even allowed to keep pleasure to herself. Geez, Greedy Mr Evil... 

To be fair.. i had this one coming. Another selection of sextoys ended up in my mailbox a while back and i was allowed to make the choice myself without Him really saying much of anything about it. i picked two things and one of them got sent my way. This time it was a bondage kit in bright pink. A set of rope cuffs with a blindfold and gag included. Already own a blindfold and gag but cant have too many right. 

So.. it all started with me being his greedy little slut asking if i was allowed to play before bed. He thought about it for awhile and then said i could.... but only if i included my new toys. 

Of course He had an idea about how his little girl should put these to the test.. 

Sometimes i should just keep my mouth shut and stop giving Him ideas. 

He starts off carefully and tells me i have to put one cuff around my left ankle, the other around my right and then put both ends of those around my left wrist.  I was then told to put the same arm behind my head, which forced my tied ankles in the air. Sounds simple enough right? i have to admit i did sigh a little.. and got told off for it too i might add but i still had a smile on my face and agreed to those terms.. then comes the hard part. He tells me i have to do it gagged and blindfolded too.. Once again i agree and just as i'm about to end the call He goes "Oh.. and babygirl, nippleclamps on and plugged too". What now?! and here i thought i was going to get away easy for once. i should so know better. 

I could hear the huge grin on His face as he quickly ends the call, not giving much room for complaints.

He did manage to squeeze in a request for a picture before hanging up the phone. Leaving His girl to do as she's told... In the end i'm glad i was made to wear the gag.. and so glad the guy next door wasn't home. 

The cuffs sure leaves a lot of possibilities and i like the softness in something so evil, but have to say i like the gag more then the cuffs. Its way more comfy then the one i already own, even if i prefer black over pink. 

Just hope Mr Evil is around for His proper Thank you soon...

Maslow's hierarchy of needs

My summer holiday is coming up (actually celebrating midsummer in Sweden today, Yay for national holidays) and things at work are slowing down some, at last. When your mind isn't filled with work and other stressful things it gives you (in this case me) time to think about things differently.

The latest subject on my mind has been needs. i came across Maslow's hierarchy of needs again the other day and it got me thinking. (If you have no idea what on earth i'm on about.. look here ).

To me it seems alot of people have flipped the pyramid. Putting more focus on self- actualization then basic needs. At one point i did too, but i learned my lesson and life doesn't work too well that way. Its easy to tip the pyramid over if you take care of the "top" needs first.  So how does this connect to D/s.. well when a Dom goes in and starts "controlling" their subs life.. What part do they go for first? Like everything else that depends on the Dom i'm sure.. but wouldn't it be more effective to go for the basics first? Sleep for example.. or Sex?

Where does your biggest needs fit in? What need is the most important after the basic ones?

My needs change over time.. but right now, right this minute i'd do anything for hug or ten.

Blame

Mr Evil starts to wind me up over text, i follow His moves and one thing leads to the other, pictures are being sent and all of a sudden i get blamed for Him being late for work. How is that fair?

Sex store

In a small town as mine, finding a store that sell fun toys isn't the easiest thing in the world. A while back i was on holiday and of course just "happened" to walk past the largest toy store they had. It was massive! They had it all, and then some. Found some really awesome whips and paddles i wouldn't mind picking up if i was allowed. This also included one with spikes. My friend smacked me on the hand with it and... ouch! Hand hurt for hours after. When i told Mr Evil He laughed and said it probably wouldn't hurt that much if it was landing on my arse. Somehow i'm not as sure. A little harder and it would be bleeding.

Internet is awesome for shopping but having the chance to touch, squeeze and try things can make a huge difference. Would never ever have thought that paddle would cause that pain, but it did. Lets hope the next store i shop from online has good deals for refunds (i'm so shopping addicted).

His little science project

What started out as a sex toy ended up as His own little science project.
Pretty sure it was triggered by my reaction for this thing, to be perfectly honest as much as i was excited, i was scared and He could feel it. He could hear it in my voice. There is no way i could ever hide emotions from Him, He reads me like a open book even during the times when i don't want Him too.

So He had this theory that He wanted to try and before i knew it, i'm leaning against the wall my body sinking toward the floor (wonder why He likes this so much). My legs spread apart and as i get closer to the floor my thighs are a bit.. uncomfortable. Thats where He wanted to go with this. He made me rub my inner thigh, squeeze it even before digging the wheel into my skin and rolling it from my knee up to the edge of my panties. It hurt! It really hurt. To be honest with you all, i didn't expect it too, rolling it on my arm just as hard didn't.
What does He say? i could hear the smile on His face "Just as I thought" Thats all. Master loves to torture me!

He made me do it again on the other thigh too. Gah.. pain! He just laughed and made me change positions. This time putting more weight on my feet making my legs and arse tense. He made me roll it over my arse and omg.. it hurt even more. Still so surprised by the fact that it did. Some of what happened last night when He played with me is a bit of a cloud but He did at some point make me roll it over the same spot twice, letting it really, really dig in the second time. i was about to die. Scary thought of having Him do this to me Himself with me tied up and blindfolded. Scary!

As much i do hate to admit it, the whole thing did make me wet. His project was over and He went on like nothing had happened. i was so damn frustrated. It took me some time but couldn't help myself.. i just had to.. ask Him if His little girl would be allowed a orgasm.

For some reason He looked up a picture of this new little toy and sounded so happy when He saw the handle had a round tip. He said yes and told me to go play with the toy in my *bip* and send Him a picture while He ordered some food. Blushing, shivering, of course His little girl did as she was told.
Happy to be allowed her orgasm when He came back.

He made me give it a kiss when it was all over, saying how little girls should learn to respect the things that give them pain and pleasure. He made me sleep with it in my bed too but thats another story....

Thanks Eden fantasys for my new BDSM toy

Story of O

It's late on a Friday night. 

The rain outside her bedroom window is coming down hard.

She's always found the rain peaceful.

The sound relaxes her and the thought of everything old, 

dirty and unpure being washed away calms her.

She lays in bed with her book, 

the story of someone like her, a slave.

The story of O. 

The story making her somewhat excited and somewhat frustrated. 

How can O agree to being treated like this. 

Used by strangers any way they wish and O's 

Master using the trust she has in his love to take advantage of her. 

It's not consensual, there are no safewords. 

There isn't even the option of speaking.

O agrees to it all, agrees to everything in fear that her lover 

won't love her anymore.  While the pages of the book are being turned, 

she can't help but think of her own place in the world. 

How much she urges for that spot next to Masters feet, 

and just how much His love mean to her.

Has her Master ever used the love she hold for Him to get His way? 

Thoughts rushing through her head, before she finally puts the book down, 

turns off the light and falls asleep thinking about her Master. 

Dont know where to start.

This girl doesn't know where to start.

She knows how important it is for her to remember her place but, 

sometimes emotions take over and it's hard to see through them. 

Her place is at Masters feet. 

As Your slave for You to do with as You see fit 

and hopefully with both Your (and her best) at heart. 

This slave might not always understand it all but

she knows there is a purpose for it, even if it's for Masters pleasure alone. 

She's sorry for forgetting her place sometimes, at times like today. 

She is where she is cause it's a place she wants to be, 

a place You let her be and she should treat it as the gift it is. 

Specially on days when You treats Her like a princess. 

It's a reward for being the good girl You want her to be. 

To forget her place during moments like that is nothing but disrespectful. 
 

This girl is sorry for disrespecting You. Didn't mean too.