No restrictions

This morning before work i was on the phone with Master. We started talking about the blog and blogs i read.
i asked Him if He had read the posts i sent Him to get approved a few days ago. He said He had been busy so no.

Thats when it happened "If you think its a okey post that I'd approve, post it".  He let go of the rule that all blogposts must be approved before posting. Didn't know what to say.. Kinda got used to having to run them by Him, and as He said it this morning it kinda freaked me out.

When i started the blog i was sorta upset that i did indeed have to run them by Him before posting. Now that i'm used to it i'm not sure i want to stop. Specially not since He reminded me of what my next punishment will be if or more like when i fuck up next. Last time i did something i shouldnt have, he was going to give me the kneeling on rice punishment, He never did and ended up giving me something else instead. Since then He has always said that my next punishment will be just that. Kneeling on rice.. i hate it and He knows it.

Now i'm scared. So i played it safe. Had a blogpost written that He had read and approved but asked me to check spelling etc on. Changed it as much as i could and posted it. Question is..going to last or not?

Lack of torture?

There are times when things just fly by, there is no time for anything and no time for you and your partner.
Do you miss it? Do you get cranky without it?

Cant remember to be honest but i think maybe i've had this subject up for discussion before. It just became oh so clear the other day thou. Mr Evil and i talk, text, email etc usually at least once in a day. The other day we had a conversation that ended up on the more kinky side. Giving me something to think about all day, the conversation was picked up again in the evening and even continued the next morning. He had been teasing both playfully and sexually for almost two days when it was just impossible to control. He knows where to push, what to say and when. He really does read me so well.. and getting me to blush, by having to admit that i am indeed that kinky girl we had talked about didn't make it any better..

Thats when it hit me (maybe all over again) that i need Him to be this Evil person, to call me those names, to make me frustrated, to make me feel controlled, needed etc. That i wouldn't be who i am without it and for me to be happy, i need Him to do these things to me. Cant remember His exact words but around those days He made a comment on how i glow when He tortures me. Scary thing is, He's right. i need it, i crave it.
i am His little slut and without His torture i get cranky, or even worse turn into this bitchy subbie who pushes limits and rules just to get a reaction and thats not a person i want to be.

i want to make My Daddy happy in everything i do, and i want Him to be proud of His little girl.

So that leaves me with a question. Is there anything you crave so bad that you get truly cranky without it?

Daddy's babygirl

Been thinking about writing a post on the topic for awhile but since everyone else (ok not everyone but alot of bloggers) are doing it i thought maybe it was time.

Pretty sure most of you have seen the subject fry by in a post  of mine here and there. It's been one of those things that came up in conversations with Mr Evil more then once. He made me pull that side of myself out for Him from time to time. There was a time when it was almost impossible and i only did it to please Him (this is years ago). As always things change, He makes me change, sometimes without me even realizing. Calling my Dom Daddy softens Him, and it would be a lie if i said i had never taken advantage of that fact. To say i've used it to get my way isn't true thou. Never been able to use it like that without getting caught. Not saying i haven't tried it, cause i have but as always He can see right through me.

Don't really know how it happened. Slowly been sinking into the whole Daddy's little girl thing. Its one of those things i sink into when He calls me little one, little girl, babygirl etc. He can get me in that mood in no time and i still have no idea how (again, cant believe He made me enjoy something i was so against at one point). Not hard to tell that He likes it and of course i want to keep Him smiling.

When the whole anal thing played a few weeks ago i promised i would be His little good girl all week in exchange for a orgasm. Maybe cause i knew He wouldn't say no then? Either way, last week put me right in the little girl mood. Just the simple little things like greeting Him in the morning with "Morning Daddy" and getting a "morning babygirl" back  He gave me small harmless tasks during the whole week too that just made the Daddy thing even more intense. Little things that to some might not matter but it got me to where He wanted me (or so i think). Cause thats how it is right? Evil Dom's always plan everything in advance and always have a goal with everything they say, do (and tell you to do)?.

The week is long gone, i'm no longer required to do the Daddy thing.. but it sticks. Maybe cause i like it. i know He enjoys it and a week is all it took for it to be a habit. Don't really know but feels weird to call Him Master now. Daddy comes more natural. He looks after me, takes care of me, keeps me safe and most importantly makes me feel like the most loved person in the world. We just have a weird way of showing it sometimes giggles.

So to the people out there that are totally against it. Open your mind and give it a try, you might be surprised. And just cause people does the Daddy thing doesn't mean they take it further then that. Some do, some don't. But we are all adults (i hope) so what people do is their choice (unless its illegal).

Embrace your kink people!

Thank you

This blog has been around for just over 3 months (started it jan 4th) and have since had 2064 views.
Thank you all for reading, for commenting, for caring and for following my adventure.
Thank you for opening my eyes, teaching me things and making me smile.

Didn't expect my mini part of the world to get this amount of attention. Surprised me actually, but i'm grateful for having a space to show my kinky side, getting things off my chest and for being heard.

Simply said, Thank you!

Questions

Not to sure there are people out there with any. But if there is, feel free to ask questions, will do my best to answer them.

Quoting Myself

Are you sure that's not what you said? Because that's what I remember, and in the end isn't that what's important?

Anal Play part 2

There was a part two to the anal play just as i thought.
The toys arrived in the mail Wednesday and as soon as i had picked them up i sent a message to Mr Evil letting Him know. Figured it would take a few days before there was room in every day life for playing so wasnt too stressed. A little scared to even open the box thou. However.i did open the big box but not the individual ones until He told me too. He made me try the gag before bed that day and send Him a picture. Strange, exciting and odd? feeling. (So hard to express feelings and emotions.)

Yesterday i talked to Him before work, of course the gag picture from the night before came up as well as the toys. Tried to hold my feelings about all of this back (99% of the time its just me being playful) but as always He can look right through it, so no point in trying i guess. Don't really know what happened but the conversation lead on a certain mood and ended with me asking permission to touch myself. He said no, saying we had a deal (and we did). He then changed His mind saying i had been a good little girl all week and i could. Should have seen it coming but when i asked permission to cum He said no. Touching but not being allowed to cum. Evil is all i have to say about that. i was cranky but passed after  2min. After all, it is His choice, not mine and i did (and still do, happily) willingly hand over control to Him.

Was slowly getting ready to jump in bed after a long night getting yelled at (No, He wasn't the one yelling, been a good little girl this week remember) when He calls and give me a list of things to place on the bed.
There it was... the new anal toy. Knew so well what was coming next.
After some playing with nipple clamps and vibrator it was time. So scared, long deep breathes and yet so excited. Wish He could have been here.

Guessing most of you want details, wanting the full story and all but right now my mind is blank. Its not like i don't know what happened last night cause i do. But being able to tell you just how it happened isn't possible.
i can tell you how it started, how it ended and what happened in the middle but not how and i don't remember His words in detail.

So with that said.. i ended up with nipple clamps on (which fell off at some point), vibrator in my pussy, buttplug in my arse and one hell of a orgasm. Daddy's words pushing me to perfection,  encouraging me, telling me what i good girl i am for Him and how proud He is of me. How can things go wrong when He tells you He's proud? Not possible, even now just thinking about it all sends shivers down my spine. 

Still can't believe i did that, and once again He was right. i did enjoy it, just like He said i would.. but there are uhm a few steps between playing with the toy.. and playing with Him the same way.Don't read too much into this but i'm glad the first time is over with.

The submissive type Test

Was jumping around on random blogs found by someones blogroll that jumped me to someone elses which lead me to another one. You get the idea... and i found the The submissive type Test (again). i've done it before but cant remember when, but just had to do it again.


Results? Coming here:

Slave

You scored 30% Humiliation, 70% Submissiveness, 75% Service, and 54% Pain!

You're the slave, you scored high in both submissiveness and service, you probably want to be owned by someone, you feel the need to relinquish your power over to someone else and to service him. You are the ideal partner for 24/7 Owner/slave relationships, whether you like or deslike pain is a matter of taste, hence with humiliation, but I would bet that the chances are you enjoy them sometimes but the most important thing is whether your Dom will enjoy doing those thigns to you.
Good luck in finding your best relationship :)